For love of One’s Self
Acting like a child
Play is God’s nature
.
I have a story
You have a story
We tell different stories
Squabble!
.
I am the hero
You the villain
You the hero
I the villain
.
You and I
We play this Game
In God’s eye
There is no blame!
.
[Journal entry: scribbled on a scrap of paper,
don’t know when it was written and who inspired]
And he said:
“Truly I tell you, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven.” – Mathew 18:3 NIV
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I long to return to the world of my childhood
where there is no care in the world
playing, alone, self-contained
fully present in the now moment
moving by impulse, pure, innocent, curious
bright-eyed, frisky, exuberant
no worries, no judgement of right and wrong
no guilt feelings, no baggage
light, free, unconditioned
wounded from the game, but holds no grudges
no self-pitying, just accepting, and moving on
no projecting into the future
no lingering in the past
indeed, to enter the kingdom of God is to become like a child again.
[journal entry: 6-30-14]
You came calling in my dreams
whispering love, winning my heart
In waking state, you say you are innocent
Oh heavens, what a curse you put on me!
.
How am I going to understand this?
Am I to awaken a sleeping lover?
From a contract we signed together?
Oh heavens, what a curse you put on me!
[Journal entry 5-22-15]
Allu Kuy: The Storyteller 